Author Anne Lamott has astutely noted that “the opposite of
faith is not doubt, it is certainty”:
“I have a lot of faith. But I am also afraid a lot, and have no
real certainty about anything. I remembered something Father Tom had told
me--that the opposite of faith is not doubt, but certainty. Certainty is
missing the point entirely. Faith includes noticing the mess, the emptiness and
discomfort, and letting it be there until some light returns.” (Anne Lamott, Plan
B: Further Thoughts on Faith)
As we United Methodists approach General
Conference, I have been pondering this quote. I have asked myself, “Where has
my certainty caused me to stray from faith? Have I been willing to engage in the
hard questions regarding my own understandings as I expect others whose views
are different from mine? Am I willing to wade into the troubled waters of our
beloved church and be open to and surprised by the Spirit’s work?”
I have been especially asking myself these questions in
light of recent statements by bishops within our church. The bishops of Africa
addressed our denomination. They highlighted two major concerns, global
terrorism and homosexuality. These bishops have a front row seat to the brokenness,
injustices and death that terrorism has imparted, reminding all of us of “the
massive human rights abuses against innocent”
They conclude this section of their letter with a stirring
call to action, reminding us of our high calling as Christians: “In recognition of our role as God’s messengers of peace and reconciliation, we present this press release in the hope that we will draw the attention of our denomination to the stark realities of needless suffering and pain in our world as a result of current Global terrorism, unjust political systems and the manipulation of weaker nations by world powers; and to work together as a church to usher in God’s reign of peace, justice and freedom to all.”
However, the very next paragraph chides the church for “drifting”
away from this high calling for “God’s reign of peace, justice and freedom to
all” due to the church’s pastoral ministry with LGBT persons:
“Over the past four decades, from 1972 until the present, we
have watched with shock and dismay the rapid drift of our denomination from
this Holy call to a warm embrace of practices that have become sources of
conflict that now threatens to rip the Church apart and distract her from the
mission of leading persons to faith and making disciples of Jesus Christ for
the transformation of the world. One of such practices is the LGBT (lesbian,
gay, bisexual, and transgender).”
In the United States, one bishop, Scott Jones, offered an
unprecedented exit strategy to Rev. Cynthia Meyer, a lesbian clergywoman.
Should the 2016 General Conference retain current language prohibiting gay and
lesbian clergy from serving openly, Rev. Meyer will be asked to surrender her
credentials and “[I] will explain the process foundin ¶2548.2 to a church conference of Edgerton United Methodist Church . .. to assess their interest in withdrawing from the UMC and retaining Rev. Meyeras their pastor in a new denomination.” Bishop Jones is taking the GC 2016
theme of “Therefore Go” quite literally.
So I have been wondering, what if our certainty
is preventing us from not only living fully into our faith, but also from recognizing how
others are living into theirs as well?
I have been asking myself, as I prepare for
General Conference, “What if I’ve been reading the Bible wrong? What if God
really abhors homosexuality? What if it is a sin that automatically excludes
one from participating in the life and ministry of the church? What if the
loving relationships of gay men and lesbians are not reflections of God’s love?”
Now, to those who hold a view of homosexuality that is more restrictive than mine, you, too, must ask yourself the questions:
“What if I’ve been reading the Bible wrong? What
if homosexuality is one more example of God’s creativity? What if homosexuality
like heterosexuality really is a sacred gift, and those who are gay or lesbian
are equal partners in creating God’s beloved community? What if loving
relationships of gay men and lesbians are a reflection of God’s love?”
If I am wrong, what has been the cost in
welcoming gay men and lesbians to the table as equal partners with straight men
and women? How have I failed as a follower of Jesus?
If nothing else, by welcoming LGBTQ persons to the faith community, I have
offered a group of people that have been kept at the margins a chance to experience
the love of God. In addition, the church has benefited from the gifts of those
who have participated openly in the life of the church (let’s be clear—the church
has, is, and always will benefit from the service of lgbtq persons who are
called to make The United Methodist Church their spiritual home. No amount of legislation will prevent the Spirit from calling people--including lgbtq persons--to ministry within our church).
However, for those who currently seek to
maintain the restrictive policies regarding homosexuality and The United
Methodist Church, what if you are wrong? What has been the cost in excluding
gay men and lesbian from full participation in the body of Christ as found in
the UMC? What have we lost? What has it done to the souls of lgbtq persons, and yours?
I, for one, would rather be faulted for erring
on the side of grace.
